Welcome! Everything I wrote here is an expression of what my heart feels. Do forgive me if I ever offended anyone in any kind of way. Good day! :)
it is not easy...to let people know what's on your mind, and understand things the way you wanted them to. and words are sometimes easier to be manipulated. multiple times easier in fact, as compared to when it needs to be expressed. and the thought of having to deal with that kind of situation scares me.
but you know what's harder? to try explaining all those things that are happening inside your head and heart, that you, yourself don't understand. so, how much can we rely on other people to understand those things?
and maybe...just maybe. that is amongst a few reasons why people like me, no matter how hurtful events are, no matter how hard, we would try to keep them to ourselves as long as possible. because despite the fact that we could not find the proper word to describe the situation, there're just too many hearts involve and they need to be protected as well.
it's okay, putting a smile is easy anyway.